Broken

I'm tired, I need to go to bed. But... I'm hurting so much right now. My heart is bleeding and I feel broken. Please, Please Lord. Why? Why? This isn't me and this isn't where I want to be. I want me back. Please, Please! When will this happen? I don't know if I can take any more. I hurt. I feel like I've been broken into a million pieces and all those pieces have been scattered everywhere. Right now it feels like they'll never be able to be put back together again. There's nothing more I can say now. You know how I'm feeling Lord and why. Please, Please, PLEASE Lord. Please. Why did you make me feel this way only to make me have to wait more? I'm so broken right now even I hardly recognize myself. please...




SURRENDER by Barlow Girl
My hands hold safely to my dreams
Clutching tightly not one has fallen.
So many years I’ve shaped each one
Reflecting my heart, showing who I am.
Now you’re asking me to show
What I’m holding Oh so tightly.
Can’t open my hand; can’t let go
Does it matter?
Should I show you?
Can’t you let me go?

Surrender, surrender
You whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can’t you see
My dreams are me, My dreams are me

Say you have a plan for me
And that you want the best for my life.
Told me the world has yet to see
What you can do with one
That’s committed to your call.
I know of course what I should do
That I can’t hold these dreams forever.
But if I give them now to you
Will you take them
Away forever? Or can I dream again?

Surrender, surrender
You whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can’t you see
My dreams are me, My dreams are me